Yesterday Lunch with my DB mates, we had talks about the team and the upcoming PA races. Currently now, I'm assisting the committee to well get the team back on track and possibly get some Cookies too!
Those who knows me, well, my character is just different from other guys out there I guess. I'm a person that just wants to make others happy rather than myself! I don know why but it's like that! Yes thou it's shitty for me but as long I know I'm pleasing the rest, well I'm happy!
Say for example, sat training I gave some training plan and a few of the members were making noise about it and wanted to cut it short! Being me, I wanted to say ok! But my other teammate, she "scolded" me and told me to be firm in my training plan and fuck care what they think! Another thing they also said during lunch was my own goals! It really got me thinking hard about myself. I don't know! I just feel pissed every time I see some guys that has the damn built/body I wanna achieve!
I mean, if you have seen me training in Genesis gym, I'm really am giving my best in every set! Whether it's weights or metabolic finisher! haiz ... I really don know! I sometimes feel like quitting in everything I'm doing! I just feel so lost now in life honestly! Like where/what/who/which direction am I heading to!
Help Me be a stronger and confident person pls! My self-esteem is gone
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- Location:Singapore, Bugis
It's been a long time since I have last blogged! Been really busy over the following:
1. My 2 exams econs of Asia and Chinese business. Well glad that was oven like about 3 weeks ago!
Sadly, my Chinese business assignment marks are shitty! Having scored 10/20 and mid term 12/20 ... I'm sure my main paper was so screwed! Then comes econs in Asia, really did my best in that paper but was quite shocked at my essay assignment. Did within 2 days before due date and managed to score 18/25! Impressive! Mid term was shit, 7.5/15 which I complaint to my teacher that whatever he went through, was written in he bloody paper! (but sadly my paper out of 125 students had to be the 20 students to be chosen to send to Australia for moderation). Just hope to pass this 2 elective modules!
2. DBS race is finally over! Training and logistic wise! Phew! Havin that save bunch of group on the boat, you are more confident in it. Thou, $10000 was never our intention, we did however manage to get Both teams into the Semi finals!
Both the 200M and 500M! How awesome was that!! And we suprisingly (quoted from commentator) came in 2nd in our heats beating AustChamp, German Dragons, HP. We honestly would thought that we would get 3rd - 5th position. Well, I guess if u hunger for something, anything can happen! Thou both semis we(200M n 500M) came in 4th and 5th respectively, but I do felt our spirits were still high! It made us confident for the upcoming PA race. I think we just might get something from there!!
3. PA race. Seriously, words can't describe how bloody stressful I am doing this! The logistic itself is a killer with so many registration and rules! It's so fuck up! I took 4 hours in office just to register 37 people by hand and messaging all their information! (haha at least now I know who are the rich ones :p) PA has came up with one weird rules that coxswain now need to have a eq cert called "recreational coach instructor cert" ... Like hello no one has this yet well in our team. I think next year we got to send everyone for this course to be save!
Anyway, finally I have planned to send the following:
- 1 x 22 mixed crew boat
- 1 x 12 crew ladies (I wanna train them hard to get something)
- 1 x 12 crew mixed PA community Race (HY seems want to get a medal in this too and their rules in this are even worst)
- 2 x 12 mixed inter CSC race (one senior one newbie)
Hopefully, hopefully, everything goes well in my registration! That's what worries me!!
4. Bangkok trip! This is honestly the best Bangkok trip I had out of 10 times. Going with my colleagues we really went all out spending, cursing, insulting, knowing each other bad habits and blackmailing each other for fun! Time sure flies fast once you ate in your holiday! Anyway lookin forward to end of my china trip!
5. Dec 2012 trip! Finally got my Itinerary done for flight and accommodation! Going to shanghai (4days) and Beijing (5 days) and I think I have spend or spending $5000 just on flight and accommodation.
My first hotel in Shanghai will be Holiday Inn Downtown shanghai. I would just be staying there for one night as I want to get my points. It isnt located near the hotspots area (that's why my room cost me $120 for a club room per night) but is about 10 mins taxi ride to the bund area.
My second hotel would be the Hilton Shanghai hotel. It is about 5 mins away from Holiday Inn shanghai. But I would be staying here for 3days 2nights. Got an executive room for $645 bucks for 2 nights! Bloody worth it I must say! After which I would fly to Beijing!
Flight wise, I would be taking AirChina as it is the only star alliance airline that flies there. I am so tempted to take first class being only $800 ... If I take business it would be $600 ... Hmm will think and consider it!
In Beijing, I did the same as I would be doing in shanghai. Staying under the Intercontinental hotel group and Hilton Hotel group. My first hotel would be Intercontinental Beijing Financial street Hotel. I had booked a 1 club grand deluxe bedroom and cost me bloody $900. Being Ambassodor gold member .. I think and will be upgraded to their suite!(hoping). I would be there for 3 days 2 nights and after that will move to Hilton Wangfujing hotel.
I would stay there for 3 days 2 nights also. Room wise I have not considered but will wait for a good promo from Hilton when time comes! Oh well, shall look forward to my china Trip!!
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- Location:Singapore
My first mid term for economics was a total disappointment! I expected to get at least 10/15 with the main points I wrote!
But fuck I got 7.5marks out of 15marks! Really really unfair! I just now have to really aim hard for my main paper now! I aiming to get at least 60-70 for this paper!
Will show it! Tmr is Chinese business ... I believe my mid term is really shitty but my assignment was done quite well ... But no matter what I believe I will go both at least 65-70 and above!
For a better future!
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- Location:Singapore, Mount Emily Park
Yesterday was training and to me it wasn't the same as what we had hoped and envision it to be! Attendance was so pathetic with just only 16 rowers (including the newbie). I really feel very upset with this whole thing here!
What happen to the goals that we discussed on AGM last year?
We can't archieve it unless everyone comes down for the 2 hours of training! Everyone is missing ... the seniors and the season junior rowers. =( I'm extremely dissapointed in a few teamamtes of mine especially! They got the time to go and sign up a new sport but they can't commit to Dragonboating! Why must you follow!!!???
I just hope next week attendance will be better and hopefully to fill up at least 2 FULL 10 Men Boats ...
Maybe it's my passion that still drives me to come every sunday for Dragonboating! I don know ... i just really love this sport and i hope our Team Kiyah will continue to fly the flag high ... with a good attendance!
- Mood:
disappointed
Studying part time is stressful.
Studying a Degree part time is more stressful and tiring!
I feel really drain out as mid term are just this week! Not one paper but 2! Chinese business and Changing economics of Asia! Too many history and GDP to remember! Sigh
I just honestly feel so drained out!
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- Location:Singapore, Mount Emily Park
1. Change of Job
It's been 3 years since i've worked in UOB Property Division and i must truly said i am blessed to work there. Life there is just easy, it allows me to do whatever i want as long i do my work.
1. Able to let me study
2. able to secretly go 2 hours lunch/break
3. Tea Break
4. Able to leave work on the dot. Never done any OT before
5. Able to surf the net especially
But after 3 years of doing this, i'm starting to get really bored here. I mean i'm just doing admin work mostly and it's not a career i want to have of course. Secondly, it's not say the pay i'm getting is making me feel like staying another 2 years more. UOB HR is still using my ITE Certificate rather than my MDIS Diploma Cert. Their reason is they are just going to keep it for record and the Dip i cert i got doesnt plays a part in the work i'm doing. Like WTF!
I'm actually more into being in the front line, where i can serve the banking customers like doing their loans, insurances, Fixed deposis, tradings, etc. I'm into this financial field and love being in this market. honestly, i wanna do more on the trading for bank as it's stressful but a really challenging job scope.
Well, i;ve send my resume to ANZ Bank being a Client Representative and Maybank. I'm more into working in CIMB and ANZ actually so looks like i gotta wait. For now, if i got the job, i will just gotta see how it goes! Front Line Bonuses are like 8 to 36 Months for Local and Offshore Banks! Can you imagine! Omg!
We just have to wait and see!
2. Genesis
I have to say ... i think i made the right choice and investment! Thou its on the expensive side, i have to say it is really worth it! I have been gaining ample strenght and i am finally able to do 4/5 Pull Ups (compared to 2 Max) Able to lift more heavier weights, my definition for the upper body is becoming boarder, chest cutting out and the sides are shrinking! I just want to concentrate on building mass on my arms. I honestly feel i lack in there and hopefully soon it will build up! =)
- Mood:
accomplished
Before I joined ... (taken on Mid October 2011) ... weight 76.8Kg
Please ignore my ezcema scars and stuff ... sigh .. anyway joined Genesis in Nov 23rd 2011 ... Thou cant really see much changes ... but i honestly have feel a change in my Strength! ... I'm able to pull more heavier weigths as the weeks passed! Started out weak actually (tot i was strong all till i came here) ... but now i am able to do:
1. DEADLIFT (heaviest so far is 65kg).
2. Able to Bench Press with Dumbbells 18kg for 5 Sets of 6 Reps (Did 20Kg and manage to do 4 Reps)
3. Pull Ups 4 now - YAY!
I just feel more happy of my archievements as every week passes! My gym mates we tend to push one other be it guy or girl and i think that what helps motivates each and everyone of us ... anyway here's an updated photo of me now .. thou no signs of ...my hopefully body .. but soon soon the build will come! Patience is the Key! =)
After ... 15th Jan 2012 (73.5KG)
I look freaking white ... anyway i just need to get rid of my Lower back fats and Sides ... =D
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- Location:Singapore, Kampong Ladang, Perseverance Estate
- Mood:
happy
Anyway i wanna do this!
Kinda like this Design actually ... But shall one day go Tattoo window Shopping ...
- Mood:
determined
UOB HR Department has unfreeze everyone's Increment and Promotion. Thou only 2 of my colleagues got promoted this year, it's a sign of hope for us Clerks being under the Union. I didn't get any Promotion this year as i had mine last year from CLERK ---> SPECIAL GRADE CLERK. Honestly, it's no big deal even with the name but the $$ has some good factors thou.
My other colleagues had their increment too but just a mere $150++ up for the year. I'm waiting for mine and it will only be in April thou. Hoping for a good bonus at least 3 Monthsand above. Last Year workload was a lot with planning of Company DnD, Dealing more shit for Indonesia, Given more job scopes for my boss, in charge of my Department Happiness Level (Organizing lunches/Dinner).
Basically i deserve a good increment and a damn good Bonus! At the same time, i really hope HR does revise my pay due to my Diploma Cert now! I really hope to get AT LEAST 2.2K and above as i have been in the banking line for 3 Years and 9 Months counting. Shall now have any expectations for now ba!
- Mood:
calm
HSBC for one has decided to terminate 25,000 of their Staff by 2015. CitiBank has layoff 10,000 of their staff too by 2012. As for the local banks, so far i heard nothing from them yet. But for my Bank UOB, they have decided to cut lots of the budget.
- Teambuilding this year has been taken off the HR Budget list
- Every Departments DnD has be cut by half
- Even my maintenance side has been cut by 10-15% for budgeting
- Projects for opening new branches has been reduced much
- HR has decided to FREEZE headcount, Promotions and Increment AGAIN!
- Bonus has been reduced due to bad 3rd quarter of Financial year in 2011 onwards
So Basically, life this year in this industry just sucks badly! I have now got to control all my spendings especially using my god damn bloody curse Credit Cards. I have decided to store away in my office cabinet locked and key away! No more shopping of clothes as i already have new ones. Just no more spending unneccessary stuffs i can say!
Even i have decided to book another new personal trip like Tokyo, i have decided to cut that out from the list and bring forward to 2014 actually! Decided to maybe just go Shanghai or maybe Australia instead ... hmmm
Next week 9th Jan 2012 will be a start to a new path! A better future! A New Career in the same Industry!. My Degree in Banking and Finance for 2 Years will begin! Less Play More Study time! When i look at my first 3/4 months timetable, i'm actually very upset! I would not be able to commit my Dragonboat Trainings as my stupid dumbass Lessons would also fall on SAT AND SUN 9am to 5pm! Seriously! who the FUCK studies on the weekends!!
I'm actually kind of nervous honestly! Back to school! Back to stress! Honestly working and Studying is really not a easy thing to cope! I just hope to pass in every subjects at one time! =) To a better future! i will!
- Mood:
anxious
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